Monday, October 31, 2011

Someone Who Knows

As I was laying in bed last night, I grabbed the May Conference issue of the Ensign and flipped through it. Sometimes I look at the pictures more than I read full talks. But, this time I read a talk titled, "The Atonement Covers All Pain", By Elder Kent F. Richards. I had the page marked, so I've probably read it before. It was soo good, and I wanted to share parts, well, most of it with you. I am really learning more about the Atonement, how it applies to me, and what it covers. I think this article helped me a little bit more.

This is what it said:

I have pondered about the purpose of pain. None of us is immune from experiencing pain. I have seen people cope with it very differently. Some turn away from God in anger, and others allow their suffering to bring them closer to God. Like you, I have experienced pain myself. Pain is a gauge of the healing process. It often teaches us patience. Perhaps that is why we use the term patient in referring to the sick.Elder Orson F. Whitney wrote: “No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude, and humility. … It is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire.”

Similarly, Elder Robert D. Hales has said:“Pain brings you to a humility that allows you to ponder. It is an experience I am grateful to have endured. …“I learned that the physical pain and the healing of the body after major surgery are remarkably similar to the spiritual pain and the healing of the soul in the process of repentance.”Much of our suffering is not necessarily our fault. Unexpected events, contradicting or disappointing circumstances, interrupting illness, and even death surround us and penetrate our mortal experience. Additionally, we may suffer afflictions because of the actions of others. Lehi noted that Jacob had “suffered … much sorrow, because of the rudeness of [his] brethren.”

Opposition is part of Heavenly Father’s plan of happiness. We all encounter enough to bring us to an awareness of our Father’s love and of our need for the Savior’s help.The Savior is not a silent observer. He Himself knows personally and infinitely the pain we face.“He suffereth the pains of all men, yea, the pains of every living creature, both men, women, and children.“Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.”6Sometimes in the depth of pain, we are tempted to ask, “Is there no balm in Gilead; is there no physician there?”7 I testify the answer is yes, there is a physician. The Atonement of Jesus Christ covers all these conditions and purposes of mortality.

Christ Himself taught:“And my Father sent me that I might be lifted up upon the cross; and after that I had been lifted up upon the cross, that I might draw all men unto me. …“Therefore, according to the power of the Father I will draw all men unto me.”10Perhaps His most significant work is in the ongoing labor with each of us individually to lift, to bless, to strengthen, to sustain, to guide, and to forgive us.As Nephi saw in vision, much of Christ’s mortal ministry was devoted to blessing and healing the sick with all kinds of maladies—physical, emotional, and spiritual. “And I beheld multitudes of people who were sick, and who were afflicted with all manner of diseases. … And they were healed by the power of the Lamb of God.”11Alma also prophesied that “he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and … he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people. …“That his bowels may be filled with mercy, … that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities.”12

Late one night lying in a hospital bed, this time as a patient and not as a physician, I read those verses over and over again. I pondered: “How is it done? For whom? What is required to qualify? Is it like forgiveness of sin? Do we have to earn His love and help?” As I pondered, I came to understand that during His mortal life Christ chose to experience pains and afflictions in order to understand us. Perhaps we also need to experience the depths of mortality in order to understand Him and our eternal purposes.13President Henry B. Eyring taught: “It will comfort us when we must wait in distress for the Savior’s promised relief that He knows, from experience, how to heal and help us. … And faith in that power will give us patience as we pray and work and wait for help. He could have known how to succor us simply by revelation, but He chose to learn by His own personal experience.”14

I felt the encircling arms of His love that night.15 Tears watered my pillow in gratitude. Later, as I was reading in Matthew about Christ’s mortal ministry, I made another discovery: “When the even was come, they brought unto him many … and he … healed all that were sick.”16 He healed all that came to Him. None were turned away.As Elder Dallin H. Oaks has taught: “Healing blessings come in many ways, each suited to our individual needs, as known to Him who loves us best. Sometimes a ‘healing’ cures our illness or lifts our burden. But sometimes we are ‘healed’ by being given strength or understanding or patience to bear the burdens placed upon us.”17 All that will come may be “clasped in the arms of Jesus.”18 All souls can be healed by His power. All pain can be soothed. In Him, we can “find rest unto [our] souls.”19 Our mortal circumstances may not immediately change, but our pain, worry, suffering, and fear can be swallowed up in His peace and healing balm.

To all of us the Savior said:“Behold, ye are little children and ye cannot bear all things now; ye must grow in grace and in the knowledge of the truth.“Fear not, little children, for you are mine. …“Wherefore, I am in your midst, and I am the good shepherd.”21Our great personal challenge in mortality is to become “a saint through the atonement of Christ.”22 The pain you and I experience may be where this process is most measured. In extremity, we can become as children in our hearts, humble ourselves, and “pray and work and wait”23 patiently for the healing of our bodies and our souls. As Job, after being refined through our trials, we “shall come forth as gold.”24I bear testimony that He is our Redeemer, our Friend, our Advocate, the Great Physician, the Great Healer. In Him we can find peace and solace in and from our pain and our sins if we will but come unto Him with humble hearts. His “grace is sufficient.”25 In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

That was well said. Just what I needed, to help keep me going. I am going to be a piece of gold after all this :)

Thursday, September 22, 2011

A field trip fire that wasn't

Today Jesse came out of his room crying.

Me: Jesse, what's wrong?
Jesse: (Still crying) I don't want to go on a field trip.
Me: What? You are going on a field trip? With your class? (I'm thinking, I didn't know anything about a field trip).
Jesse: Yes. With my class.
Me: (Very confused by all the tears about a field trip that I didn't know about)
Jesse: Today we watched a movie at school about a fire on a bus. (Then cries even harder again).
Me: Jesse, did you watch a movie at school about how to be safe on a bus in case there WAS a fire when you go on a field trip?
Jesse: Yes.

Wonder how many traumatized Kindergarteners there are tonight after watching the routine bus safety video? Thank goodness I knew about this from all the years Damien watched it or I would've been on the phone with the school.

My poor Jesse. It was hard not to laugh at his genuine fear. I told him not to worry, Mom and Dad will be on the field trip with you and gave him a hug.


Friday, September 16, 2011

Transition

I have currently transitioned to a Mom of School Age children. Some may think, so what's your point?! Well, it has been an interesting realization, and wake up call. Long gone are the days of staying in my PJs all day, and mom groups at the park. I am trying not to be a stress case, and I'm mostly holding it together for my family, cause geeez, I'm not the first woman to be in this position. A BIG thanks is in order for my Mom!

One thing I have learned, at the beginning of each school year when Mike is giving back to school blessings, I will not pass for myself. I am so thankful for a wonderful hubby, who, within a week into the school year, saw a need and offered a blessing.

Everything counts now, as in, grades, tests etc.. It has for Damien for quite a while now, but 7th grade, especially at the school he is currently at, he is being challenged (which I like) but...WOW! Homework sessions now require my full attention, unlike years past, which is taking some getting used to. I feel like if I walk away, it's just going to cause his grades to go down. We're figuring out what works. Riding the bus to and from school. Being on the football team, practice til' 5pm. Then there's the question of, go all the way out to pick him up, or have him ride the bus til' 7:30pm or we found a middle ground, ride the bus to his old Elementary = less time on bus and less gas for us. This has taken a month to figure out. Then the school has a great online resource for parents, where we can log in and check our students grades on assignments, tests, and see their attendance. It is GREAT! I love having this connection to his school, but I think it makes me hyper aware. If that makes sense? It can be a good and bad thing I think. I check it everyday to see how last night's homework session got graded. It's an emotional roller coaster every time I log in. It's almost like I want to not look, but I do. I just want him to do well, but I don't want to overreact, or under react thinking, "Oh, he's fine." I know. It's crazy. I get to bed late on nights he's with us, just to give him homework support. I went to Back to School Night at his school and I was like, "Wow! I can't believe how much Damien does in one day." I was getting the knots in my stomach as if I was in school! He gets on the bus at 6:50 am and gets home at 6:30 pm, carting a big bag of football gear (that we FINALLY got a duffle bag for) along with his book bag! And now he's barely getting to Scouts or working on that stuff, and in the back of my already crammed mind I am thinking, "How do I squeeze that in without overwhelming him?" And by the time he has time, he's off to his Dad's.....

This will be good for him. He's had it really easy in Elementary school, and I'm hoping with time, he'll be a pro at this multiple class, and sports thing. I did it. I don't know how?? Even early morning Seminary too.

And then...there's my Kindergartners.....

Tracing their ABC's and 123's. Their stressors for me are, learning their Sight Words like; go, to, and, is, the, like, play. Jesse is doing really well at it, where as Max is just in his own little world. We started practicing over the summer and it seems that he isn't improving. I'm trying not to be alarmed or get frustrated, but it's just weird? I am also pro Preschool, because they would be really behind if they didn't know these basics. Some kids in their classes don't even know how to write their names or use scissors. Thank goodness for Preschool. It really helped all of my boys get a head start! They are both doing really well behavior wise in their own, separate classrooms. Which I am glad about. The teacher in me thinks about so much when it comes to a child's success in school, and I think that is ONE of the reasons why I am the way I am when it comes to how they are picking up on what's being taught that week in class. So far they know their basics like colors, shapes, letters, numbers (I think to 30 on a good day). I know mostly what's expected of them, and I am ever watchful of signs of them being "behind". I help in their classrooms, which makes my idea of putting them in separate classes NOT a good idea cause that just make double the work for me, but I should be used to that by now, right?

And then there's being a wife.... I knew date nights were important. I've always been PRO date night. But now that life is getting busier and busier and Michael and I have less and less stress free alone time together, it is becoming more of a must. Not that we are going out every week, but we are sure thinking about it and craving that time together. I'll tell you all about our next date night AFTER the Vineyard gets done, Damien's football games, homework sessions, work, working out, and getting much needed sleep from all of the above :) Actually, thankfully to some dear friends of ours, they came to the rescue last weekend, literally, and took the boys overnight and Michael and I went to Coldstone (Yum), and breakfast in the morning at Yosemite Falls Cafe. It was much needed time to decompress.

This is not a "Pity Party" for Sarah. I am thankful for prayer, opportunities to serve, trips to the Temple, the Gospel, a husband who has the same core beliefs as me, and strives to be a better person by using the Gospel resources available. That makes SUCH a difference, when things are rough. Thankful for a wise Bishop, who can discern for our family when needed. I am thankful for friends who KNOW, and family who is THERE when I need them the most. All these things, over the past few weeks have carried me, comforted me, and helped me know that I am NOT alone (or crazy), that I am LOVED, beautiful and of worth. Interesting enough, I find myself offering the same counsel to friends that I myself struggle to internalize, guess that is for a reason.

Life is hard but it is good.

And a few good shopping trips using coupons has definitely provided therapy :)

Friday, August 12, 2011

Tadpoles

This summer I signed Max and Jesse up for swim lessons out at Airways Pool. We got an amazing deal for the two of them, 2 weeks for $40 total! It was just my price and plus it gave us something to do. Once we got them in the right class and out of the deep end, they were off and swimming!

Proud of my swimmers!

Jesse learning how to use his arms as he swims
Max learning how to kick his legs STRAIGHT
Jesse being a goof ball in the pool
Max taking after his brother
Totally paying attention to the teacher....
He is starting to figure out how to use those arms
More coaching
Learning how to use the kick boards with straight arms
Max mastering the backfloat
Overall they did as well as 5 year old boys can. They and their classmates had short attention spans while in the pool. They loved to go under water and look at each other with their goggles on. They learned basic skills such as kicking and using their arms. Once they went over to the deep end and jumped in to their teacher and they were a little surprised that they couldn't touch the bottom while swimming. They put their feet down a lot when swimming to the wall or the teacher. She even tried to teach them to turn their heads to the side and take a breath, didn't work out too well. They really do well at the back float, and love practicing what they learn while we are in the Lazy River at the Island Waterpark. Since swimming lessons they have figured out how to get down to the bottom of the pool (not in the deep end), even started doing front rolls in the water, that has been fun. The teacher says they are ready for the next level, but I think they still need more practice at these basic skills. Unfortunately, winter comes and they forget all that they have learned and we have to almost start over again.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Love, despite the imperfections

I saw this comic in the Sunday paper and I really related to every scene, even the part where the husband calls from work. I have a wonderful husband who calls me from work to say "Hi". I really look forward to it. Everyday, in one form or another he tells me I'm beautiful and offers his love and affection. On most days I feel like the woman above in scenes 1-4, what Mom doesn't?!

I just really need to work on the last scene where the woman internalizes what her husband says in such a dramatic manner. I know that's probably what my husband sees (or chooses to focus on) when he looks and thinks about me, not the wrinkles, baggy clothes, chubbiness, or no makeup.

He loves me despite my imperfections, and I really need to do the same. I am so blessed!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Duet

Today before church Jesse brought a reminder card to me from Primary stating that he was to give a talk in Primary on July 24th. Oh wait! That's today! Ok, so I scrambled in my mind as to what to do in such a short amount of time. I grabbed the infamous Talks for Tots book that I grew up with and off to church we went. As I was sitting in Sacrament meeting I thought, "We just went to go visit the temple, Jesse could talk about that, maybe even sing his favorite song "I love to see the temple" since he knows all the words." I asked him if he would do it, he seemed uncertain. Then I said, "Well what if I help you or Max sings with you, will you do it then?" He hesitantly agreed, and so it was settled. So Mike and I met in the Primary room for sharing time and Max got up and read the scripture with daddy's help, then it was Jesse's turn. I got up to help him, I prompted him as to what to say so he didn't panic, (like he tends to do). He said, "I went to the Temple with my mom, I love to see the temple." And them him and I both sang I love to see the Temple. According to my critic (Mike) he said we did really good. I want this to go on the record as my first duet in front of a crowd. Yes, it was just Primary children, but still!! Even better, it was with my son. There were a few moments that Jesse really wanted to cry, but he held it together until the last word. It was a sweet moment.

Good job Jesse! Good job Max!

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Salsa Sunday!

Okay, so Anna made this salsa at one of our family gatherings ages ago and we fell in LOVE, and now, it is apart of our family. Last week, Damien said, "Mike, are you going to make some salsa? It IS salsa Sunday?" LOL! We do make this salsa once a week and we down it by Thursday or so. Needless to say, we LOVE salsa. Every time Mike makes it, it comes out different, sometimes super hot, sometimes not. Even Max and Jesse are growing accustomed to the salsa. Since this has become such a family tradition, I decided to give the salsa its own blog post. We anxiously wait for Dad to make the salsa, and then rush the bag of chips to try his creation. Today, we made it with jalapenos from our very own garden! How HOT is THAT!! Oh it was HOT. You didn't know it was hot until a few seconds later :) Then you have major salsa/onion aftertaste for at least a day or so, that is, IF you don't have anymore salsa ;) Mike has since adapted the below recipe, now he only uses one can of Rotel, and goes from there.



Ingredients

  • 1 can (28 Ounce) Whole Tomatoes With Juice
  • 2 cans (10 Ounce) Rotel (diced Tomatoes And Green Chilies)
  • 1/4 cup Chopped Onion
  • 1 clove Garlic, Minced
  • 1 whole Jalapeno, Quartered And Sliced Thin
  • 1/4 teaspoon Sugar
  • 1/4 teaspoon Salt
  • 1/4 teaspoon Ground Cumin
  • 1/2 cup Cilantro (more To Taste!)
  • 1/2 whole Lime Juice



This recipe comes from The Pioneer Women website